Can't Sleep

Here it is 12:15 a.m. and I cannot sleep. I tried reading, but the book I'm reading is a mystery, thriller, christian fiction. My husband is gone to Youth Camp, so I'm here with the kids alone. Mystery thriller with no husband around, well, let's just say I put the book down for awhile. Seriously, I'm not a chicken, but Terri Blackstone is getting carried away with her writing abilities!

I am now enjoying a new bible study...It is over the book of Galatians. I really appreciate the book of Galatians. Without this book, I would not fully understand the freedom I have in Christ and the importance of the Holy Spirit working in my life...Do I have it all together? No. Do I want to be better? Yes. Today's lesson was about freedom from the law; the ability to live in Christ. Gal. 2:20 "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." I don't have to follow a bunch of legalistic rules to be considered a "good" person. I have to believe that Christ is my Savior (my white knight saving this damsel in distress); He has changed me, forgiven me of the ridiculous sin I was in, and because of this, I endeavor to do good to others to glorify or give credit to God! Wow! It seems so simple, repetitive, or rhetorical, but He truly did this for me...Me....I was so unworthy of His grace and mercy...do you know the things I did? Some of you probably do! In a way, that is so embarrassing and humiliating for me, but in another way, I'm glad you know. I'm glad you know the miraculous work Christ has done in me. I've been healed of cancer, healed of emotional lacerations, given peace-a peace that did overcome all of the anger I held inside. I've been given an awesome man of God to watch over me, provide for me, protect me. Nate is the white knight that God uses every day to save this pitiful damsel in distress. God shows me His love through my husband in special ways. I feel like the fairytale princess who is just waiting to wake up, pinch myself, and find that it is all just a wonderful dream. The great reality is that I am truly conscious, awake to all the great blessings in my life. I'm really alive, living this dream! My rambling are not just stammerings of a tired woman in the windy Central Plains. They are reminders to myself and others that the Kingdom Life is possible, if only you'll just believe! When the days come, because they always do, that I forget of the wonder of God in my life, remind me of this moment; this blog...this declaration of God's greatness on this particular night. This is the night I could not sleep, and I was given the revelation that few ever understand...I have been crucified with Christ, I no longer live, but Christ lives in me! Help me Lord! Help me live the Kingdom Life Every Day!